Wylder is almost 3 months old, weighing in at 15 lbs and 2 feet tall. Let me say this, my life gets better every single day. As much as I enjoyed him as a newborn, I'd be lying if I didn't say the first two weeks, no...I lied, the first four weeks, was not only a struggle being a new mom again but emotionally, mentally and physically. I felt like I didn't know him for so long. He was a different baby every day. It was so different than when I had Nolan. You know how babies come into this world so pure and innocent? Well I've come to the conclusion that this isn't true. I mean, he's pure and sweet but in the bible it says we should be slow to anger. Wylder would go from zero to ten without warning then stay at TEN until he finally got tired of crying, which would be for an indefinite amount of time. I mean even when he cried for 5 minutes in the middle of the night, I swear it was actually 3 hours! So one day I sent Tom out for gripe water. Don't judge or do judge, I don't care. Remember, we are in this together, doing the same job as mothers and fathers raising babies/toddlers/kids/teens! Like I said, we bought gripe water. It helped him take the soother better because he isn't really soother baby either so we just dip the soother in some gripe but unfortunately for us, Wylder caught on our trick and refused the gripe covered soother. He was confusing me, much like his father did when we first started dating, so he stopped accepting the soother and we were back at square one with an angry, unsettled Wylder that had us taking turns pacing the halls, "shooshing" him until he finally gave into sleep.
Taking it back to the bible, let's talk about patience being a virtue. I don't think so. Even I find this one confusing but Wylder was far from patient. FEED ME! CHANGE ME! HOLD ME! So we did. Dinner waited, sleep waited, Nolan waited, because Wylder was the boss.
Tom was going away for work right around Wylder's 7th week of life. With the help of my most amazing friend, I got the courage to sleep train him. I was so scared it was going to be a disaster, so every day and night my dear friend/sleep coach would walk me through what I should do and tell me how great I was doing. Wylder took to the sleep training like a champ. I'm probably one in a million to have a baby not cry through it but by night 3, he was sleeping until 4:30-6am. This past week he's had two nights of sleeping until 7. Since the sleep training, my baby boy is a completely different baby. He's calmer and happier. He also doesn't need to be held all the time and will lay on his back smiling at his toys for an hour several times a day. No more crying fits of rage and no more pacing the hallway. I really couldn't have done it without the daily encouragement from my amazing friend! She is a already a huge blessing in my life, but was especially good to me the moment Wylder entered this world. #lifecoach
11 weeks post partum and I'm finally feeling like myself again. I've been making daily and weekly goals including showering, cooking, cleaning, exercising and trying to reconnect with friends again. I lost a part of myself on the long weary journey to have this baby and I'm working so hard to restore what was lost. Moving on from friendships I sadly lost through my hard times, working past hurts and issues I have, learning to love again and learning to create healthy boundaries as I surround myself with good people. It's not easy but I'm looking forward to this new chapter of life. We are in it and on the other side of it now and the feeling is incredible!
'LIFE'S GOOD! LIFE'S GREAT! LIFE GETS BETTER' - Tom and Nolan's dinner chant (cuz they are that cool!)
